ANGER

Anger is an emotion. The physical effects of anger include increased heart rate, blood pressure, and levels of adrenaline and noradrenaline.Some view anger as part of the fight or flight brain response to the perceived threat of harm.Anger becomes the predominant feeling behaviorally, cognitively, and physiologically when a person makes the conscious choice to take action to immediately stop the threatening behavior of another outside force. Anger can have many physical and mental consequences...Recently ive come to understand a few things about myself and one of the main things is my anger.I know where it stems from but it is hard to understand how someone that is so cool calm and collective can turn into a raging beast at the drop of a dime...leaving everything in my path destroyed emotionally and physically.Truthfully i hate being like this.I dont like not being able to control myself.I have lost so much because of it...most of which i can never get back.I know you saying to ya self man this guy has issues,but i know im not alone when it comes to dealing with anger issues.Im not a woman beater or no bully or nuthing like that.But when i feel some kinda way ...I become blinded my fury.For example i received a text today about paybacks....Didnt know what the person was talkin bout and at the time i didnt care.I dont know if it was how it was worded or just me bein in a bad mood....but i took it to the extreme.The funny thing is that the text wasnt on no mean or crazy shit....It turned out to be something so non threatening that i had to apologize...Now i've lived my whole life being angry at something .it wasnt till i became an adult where i was able to tame my anger...when im angry i tend to do stupid stuff i would never do if i wasnt angry...by the time i realize what im doin its too late.I consider my self to be a wordsmith at times....so the times when im angry and im arguing with somebody...at that moment watever i can say to make that person have the worst feeling in the world is most likely what i would say.I would say the way i am when im mad compared to the way im am when im fine are two totally different things...its like im two people...R.A.W AND KARON.What im working on now is trying to seperate the two before i prevent myself from ever trully being happy.