Why Me?

You ever wake up in the morning and the first thing you say to yourself is why me?...Well today was one of those mornings.As a matter of fact for the past couple months i've had a few of those mornings...Shit sometimes i dont even want to get up and do what i have to for that day.Everyday i find a reason to get up and handle my business.I come to realize no matter what i do there is always going to be somebody mispleased with things I say or things I do.I've also come to realize i was not put on this planet to please everybody,and there are always going to be people who feel some kind of way about my actions.However at the end of the day who does it really matter too?...Me!You see you can make a million people happy a day but if you yourself are not then what IS THE POINT.I spent more time making others happy then i do myself.When i finally decide to do things for myself I am considered selfish,self centered,an asshole,an a whole bunch of things i beleive not to be true.I spent most of my life trying to find happiness.And all i have recieved is stress,stress,and more stress.I always felt like my childhood was short lived.I feel like i had to grow up way faster then a lot of people my age.I also feel like i have yet an still alot of growing to do.However if there is one thing you most defintely cannot say to me is that i am selfish.I am not the type to let words hurt me,but some words do have a bearing on my soul(depending on who's sayin it).They say all good things come to those who wait....i been waiting for 26 years.Its just been one thing after another.So I ask yet again Why Me? Im not a drug dealer,murderer,rapist,cheater,child molester,or none of the sort...I am a musician by nature and a artist at heart.I've done my share of dirt ,but who hasnt? The funny thing is im just now recieving guidance in my life...as a child i had none...just negativity.Therefore i did negative things.I've lied ,cheated,stole shit,beat people up,caused alot of heartache and drama.But that was the old me...The new me isnt nowhere near how i was.So I ask yet again Why Me?I see people driving around in fly cars, and im walking.I see people with fly gear on and my closet cant even compare.I know people my age with houses already,yet i still live in a apartment....Dont get me wrong im not jealous...i just dont understand...I mean i work hard everyday to achieve my goals.But it seems everytime im one step ahead something or someone brings me back down.And its crazy because i allow them too....Well you know what no more!Im putting my foot down.I refuse to be burdened with other peoples problems and forget about my own.I refuse to be someones scapegoat for a situation i had nuthing to do with.I refuse to adjust my life just so someone else can live better and feel good about themself...No this is where i draw the line.This where i take my destiny back into my hands where it belongs in the first place.Now its time i focus on my future...at the end of the day thats all i have anyway!No more Mr. Nice guy.The bad boy returns.....